Something is odd, or off… You see I think that I am upset, scratch that I know I’m upset. However I do not know what, and I wonder if it has something to do with more than me just loosing my job… maybe it’s because I don’t want to look for another one? Maybe it’s because I really liked it and I just want it back? Like I said I don’t know what’s wrong, maybe it could be that I am running out of friends here. The only one I seem to have any more is the witch, and I barely see her at all. Went to Toledo today to see the tall one, I went home almost immediately because I was just so upset about nothing, I was about to cry and had random thoughts of dyeing, not killing myself but dyeing…
I went and bought groceries today, $37 on pretty much NOTHING! Soup, chips, salsa, powdered doughnuts, juice, and ramen, chicken, and pasta with sauce I can make a few things I suppose.
Smoke has been distant too I haven’t heard form him in like 2 weeks haven’t seen him either. Apparently he has invited his dates to the movies we are going to see this week that we’ve had planned for a while, makes sense huh? 4th wheel really! Maybe that is making me upset is that I haven’t been around people… I’m meant to be around family and things like that.
Either way I need to look for a job again, where is my inspiration! Dear motivation, please send me your greatness!!!
"Reputation is an idle and most false imposition; oft got without merit, and lost without deserving."
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