today as a rather nice day, I got a call from Time Warner Cable and I have an interview tomorrow at 2pm at their office. I am to take a test before I go, however for some reason it is not letting me log into it. I will call the lady back tomorrow if tec support is unable to assist me tomorrow by phone to figure out what to do. I really hope i end up getting this job! It wont start till Dec. 13, however it is a nice pay increase and i believe it will be something that I can stick to, and it will not go away. $10/hr + .75 for being second shift = $10.75/hr + commission makes Eros happy!
Also met a nice guy ... snake lets call him, he seems great but i'm not getting my hopes up haha it never ends well......
"its better to be dead"
Monday, November 15, 2010
Friday, November 12, 2010
Time In, Time Out, Time To Go...
Something is odd, or off… You see I think that I am upset, scratch that I know I’m upset. However I do not know what, and I wonder if it has something to do with more than me just loosing my job… maybe it’s because I don’t want to look for another one? Maybe it’s because I really liked it and I just want it back? Like I said I don’t know what’s wrong, maybe it could be that I am running out of friends here. The only one I seem to have any more is the witch, and I barely see her at all. Went to Toledo today to see the tall one, I went home almost immediately because I was just so upset about nothing, I was about to cry and had random thoughts of dyeing, not killing myself but dyeing…
I went and bought groceries today, $37 on pretty much NOTHING! Soup, chips, salsa, powdered doughnuts, juice, and ramen, chicken, and pasta with sauce I can make a few things I suppose.
Smoke has been distant too I haven’t heard form him in like 2 weeks haven’t seen him either. Apparently he has invited his dates to the movies we are going to see this week that we’ve had planned for a while, makes sense huh? 4th wheel really! Maybe that is making me upset is that I haven’t been around people… I’m meant to be around family and things like that.
Either way I need to look for a job again, where is my inspiration! Dear motivation, please send me your greatness!!!
"Reputation is an idle and most false imposition; oft got without merit, and lost without deserving."
I went and bought groceries today, $37 on pretty much NOTHING! Soup, chips, salsa, powdered doughnuts, juice, and ramen, chicken, and pasta with sauce I can make a few things I suppose.
Smoke has been distant too I haven’t heard form him in like 2 weeks haven’t seen him either. Apparently he has invited his dates to the movies we are going to see this week that we’ve had planned for a while, makes sense huh? 4th wheel really! Maybe that is making me upset is that I haven’t been around people… I’m meant to be around family and things like that.
Either way I need to look for a job again, where is my inspiration! Dear motivation, please send me your greatness!!!
"Reputation is an idle and most false imposition; oft got without merit, and lost without deserving."
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
To One's Own End
Today has been something of a great jumbled nothing.
I went to bed so later at 11pm, and awoke at 12am, back to bed at 8am then sleep again till 11am ... dog sitting and job hunting online. I need to find one soon. I have 3 months paid ahead for my car payments which leaves 7months left but... still.
Saw the witch today, we had penstation and watched movies. discussed again how we are loosing all our good actors / actresses and none are stepping up to replace them... anyone else notice that?
back home now talking to the morman, she is gaming with me... though i don't seem to be in the mood for it because i feel depressed... -sighs- when my job comes again i will be okay but i can't not stress about it, it is just how i am.
"Like as the waves make towards the pebbl'd shore, so do our minutes, hasten to their end. "
I went to bed so later at 11pm, and awoke at 12am, back to bed at 8am then sleep again till 11am ... dog sitting and job hunting online. I need to find one soon. I have 3 months paid ahead for my car payments which leaves 7months left but... still.
Saw the witch today, we had penstation and watched movies. discussed again how we are loosing all our good actors / actresses and none are stepping up to replace them... anyone else notice that?
back home now talking to the morman, she is gaming with me... though i don't seem to be in the mood for it because i feel depressed... -sighs- when my job comes again i will be okay but i can't not stress about it, it is just how i am.
"Like as the waves make towards the pebbl'd shore, so do our minutes, hasten to their end. "
Monday, November 8, 2010
To Begin Again.
So I haven't been writing in this at all, mainly because I had forgotten about it to be honest. But now I have time again and a movie I was watching on Netflix reminded me of blogs, so why not start and actually do it this time?
Sunday I was laid off my job, it’s like the 3rd job I've had this year, I can't believe it apparently I wasn't a match for the job they had me in. I don't even know how that could be I showed up on time, early actually every day, did all the work that I’ve been informed about for the specific day. And I never went into over time. I even took initiative and did things I knew we had to do and I could do without anyone telling me about it, or explaining how it’s done. So I ask you all, why is it that I wasn't suited for that job? Maybe there is something wrong with me, am I cursed to not work a year in a job ever?
Today was something of a moping day for me; I sat at home and ate left over Chinese with my parents' dogs since mom and dad are in Florida I’m watching them. Mom called today to let me know they made it home safe at like 10 something so they were going to bed, last day with the dogs I guess. I didn't tell her about the job loss yet, every time something good happens with her I always seem to have something not great happen to me and I have to tell her while she is being happy. I feel like I am draining away her happiness sometimes...
Saw young Frankenstein today, it was amusing Igor (eye-gore) was the most amusing character, and I still love the quote "could be worse" "could be raining". However, the whole movie I kept having the wily wonka song stuck in my head so it made it rather hard for me to watch the movie altogether.
I believe I am also making my best friend upset with me, and I don't know what to do about it cause I feel I a doing in unconsciously. Hopefully I’ll figure out a way to be there for her and still take care of each other, when she is down or when I am...
I think I’m going to go see the chef this week too, since I do not have work any more it makes it a lot easier... maybe I can find a job up there?
*sighs*
I hope my life straightens out soon because I don't know what I’m going to do if it doesn't...
Sunday I was laid off my job, it’s like the 3rd job I've had this year, I can't believe it apparently I wasn't a match for the job they had me in. I don't even know how that could be I showed up on time, early actually every day, did all the work that I’ve been informed about for the specific day. And I never went into over time. I even took initiative and did things I knew we had to do and I could do without anyone telling me about it, or explaining how it’s done. So I ask you all, why is it that I wasn't suited for that job? Maybe there is something wrong with me, am I cursed to not work a year in a job ever?
Today was something of a moping day for me; I sat at home and ate left over Chinese with my parents' dogs since mom and dad are in Florida I’m watching them. Mom called today to let me know they made it home safe at like 10 something so they were going to bed, last day with the dogs I guess. I didn't tell her about the job loss yet, every time something good happens with her I always seem to have something not great happen to me and I have to tell her while she is being happy. I feel like I am draining away her happiness sometimes...
Saw young Frankenstein today, it was amusing Igor (eye-gore) was the most amusing character, and I still love the quote "could be worse" "could be raining". However, the whole movie I kept having the wily wonka song stuck in my head so it made it rather hard for me to watch the movie altogether.
I believe I am also making my best friend upset with me, and I don't know what to do about it cause I feel I a doing in unconsciously. Hopefully I’ll figure out a way to be there for her and still take care of each other, when she is down or when I am...
I think I’m going to go see the chef this week too, since I do not have work any more it makes it a lot easier... maybe I can find a job up there?
*sighs*
I hope my life straightens out soon because I don't know what I’m going to do if it doesn't...
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